hello tomorrow ,

2011-09-07T16:58:00.000+08:00

for now. i'll be back here when i feel like it.

loves .

and so i'm twentyone :)

2011-07-24T01:59:00.002+08:00

at the end of an awesome birthday :)

thank you thank you thank youuuu everyone for a great celebration. past two weeks have just been amazing. it's like i celebrated turning twentyone for two whole weeks :) from arsenal in malaysia, surprise birthday party, birthday dinners and lunches, wishes, cakes, gifts and just a whole lot of LOVE :)

truly blessed. twentyone has never looked so good!

here's to another twentyone years of love, adventures and laughter.

i love!

certified!

2011-07-08T18:09:00.003+08:00

hell yeah. you read right. i am now a certified PADI open water diver :) yayerrs.

so, pulau tenggol was beautiful! and diving is so much fun. sure it was actually scary at first but after the first dive, all the fears i had just drifted away. from then on it was just a full on fun adventure :D however, we did cut short our trip to 3 days 2 nights instead of the initial 4 days 3 nights we had planned. but all is well, i finished my course. hehe

the equipments were heavy as (when on land).

but yeah, i can dive anywhere nowww. with a limit of 18m depth. so let's plan a diving trip? :D

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

*just look at the world around you, right here on the ocean floor, such wonderful things surround you :)

sun, sea, breeze :)

2011-06-30T20:13:00.003+08:00

oh hello there. yes, i completely suck at keeping up to date with things these days. but there hasn't been anything interesting happening lately anyway. although, i am leaving for terengganu in the morning :D going for a little diving course at pulau tenggol. can't wait! kinda nervous tho. the thoughts of sharks roaming around in the sea. but, it will be awesome tho. i can feel it. i mean really, sun, sea, breeze. what more could you want right? will be back on tuesday.

and oh, a little birdie told me that i'll be celebrating my 21st here in malaysia :)

*hold on to whatever you find baby, hold on to whatever will get you through .

this has got to be the good life .

2011-06-21T13:13:00.003+08:00

life is good. really is. got back from abu dhabi last week. a lot has been going on since but all is well :)

flying off to penang for the day. yes, for the day. i'm going at 3pm and coming back at 10pm tonight. what nonsense, you say? i'm only going to send my grandma off at our relative's place since she wants to spend some time there. and i, well, i just don't feel like staying there plus i'll be alone and all so i'll just come back.

also, going for a short island trip early july. i'll be doing a diving course! yay, excitinggg :D can't wait for that. so apart from that, days are filled with errands, chilling out, waiting for emails from universities and weekends with weddings and catching up with people.

sure, it can be boring. doing nothing. it'll be good to get into the uni routine again. but like i said, all is well :)

loves.

*but please tell me, what's there to complain about ?

i think i'm designed to never be in one place for too long these days.

2011-06-09T22:20:00.002+08:00

so i'm in abu dhabi right now. i know, i know. i was in kl on day, perth another, all over europe, kl, perth again and now abu dhabi? but yes. in fact, i was in kuala lumpur for a day or two before i got here about five days ago. will be here for a few more days and then i'll be back in kl again. perks of having family everywhere. perth - kuala lumpur - abu dhabi. can one girl have three homes? i think yes :)

and for that, i thank you god. i thank you for all this traveling i get to do. for the family i have. for the life i live. blessed, i am.

*hold on dear life, don't go off running from what's new .

perth .

2011-05-13T03:44:00.000+08:00

so i'm actually back in perth now. just coming up to a week now. but i haven't been doing much tho. just spending time at home, driving mom around and just finished applying to a few universities for my masters.

i wanted to write a whole lot more but i keep sneezing now and it's so uncomfortable.

yeah, so, only met up with a couple of people since i got back. perth seems empty now. especially with the malaysian students. it's like everyone's gone back home. and it was such a surprised to sit at makan2 and just saw all these people i didn't know. i mean, i was bound to bumped into at least one person i know but i didn't.

anyhoo, i miss shah alam quite a bit. i think i was getting a bit too comfortable being back there. but perth has been good so far. so yeah looking forward to a bunch of different things now. should be good :)

goodnight now.

kl love .

2011-05-07T02:59:00.006+08:00

so hello. currently now in kuala lumpur, spending what ever little time i have remaining till i fly off back to perth. pretty much just sleeping, eating, trying to catch up with a bunch of people, more eating, unpacking and packing and running around getting last minute things. remind me to never book a ticket out only a few days after a flight in. so many things, so little time!

i guess from my previous posts, you can pretty much say i had a wonderful time in europe. i did. it was so much fun, i can't wait for the next trip! already started drawing out plans in my head. which means that i have to find a job and save up. haha such high hopes. but it will be fun tho. and maybe it'll be like a friends trip instead of a family one. adventure, really :)

anyway, yeah, looking forward to perth actually. it has been a while. it should be good to go back to the middle of a slow, laid-back, relaxed environment. a lot of things in my head right now. a whole lot of plans to. just gotta get into it, execute, and see what happens. all you can do for me is pray for the best. thank you.

goodnight loves.

*there's a fire starting in my heart .

london london .

2011-05-01T06:00:00.002+08:00

hey hey. in london now :) second day now. two more nights then leaving for home on monday. looking forward to it sure, but i've been having such a great time so thats a bummer. did all the london town sightseeing - big ben, london eye, buckingham palace. and and andddd we went to emirates stadium today :D got a bunch of stuff. hehe so happy. going to bicester village tomorrow. oh, also got myself an ipad 2 :) hehe. things are going good so far.

see you soon kuala lumpur!

loves.

amsterdam !

2011-04-26T04:18:00.004+08:00

writing from our hotel room in amsterdam. leaving for glasgow tomorrow. didn't have internet in hamburg so couldn't update from there but it was beautiful! hamburg is such a green, organised city. met with some relatives there for the first time and they were so nice. made us feel so welcomed and at home :) will blog more about that when i get back to kl. we also went for a daytrip to berlin. saw parts of the berlin wall. i preferred hamburg to berlin.

amsterdam has been good too. thank goodness, the weather has been just amazing at all the countries we've been at. we've done a hell lot of walking here in amsterdam, my feet are definitely sore! hehe.

but, i must say, out of the places we've gone to, prague has been my favourite :) can't get enough of the old buildings, the cobblestone roads and the beautiful sights.

anyhoo, will update from glasgow :) later loves.

*maybe the words we want to say just don't quite come out the right way .

praha .

2011-04-19T03:10:00.004+08:00

hello there! quick update. currently posting from Prague, Czech Republic and it is beautiful here. loving the old buildings and the cobblestone roads. and everything is just so calming and still here. sitting on a sidewalk cafe, watching people go by and admiring the view - nothing beats it really. so glad we decided to come to prague.

the weather has been just beautiful. sunny with a cool breeze. did some sightseeing today. the scenery is just amazing.

two more nights here and then we head to Hamburg, Germany :)

hello from prague :)

real quick.

2011-04-13T22:45:00.002+08:00

i just noticed in those pictures earlier that my pose (or more like face-tilt) are like all the sameeeee. bahhhh. okay different photos, next time! hehe. okay bye.

three !

2011-04-13T22:14:00.000+08:00

so i had this urge to write. but then i was distracted by a lot of things. and now i forgot what it was i wanted to write. but it's okay. something will come along the way.

i feel a lot of different feelings lately. you can say i'm like a mixed bag of candy. sometimes i feel this way and at times i feel that way. but that's only natural right? different emotions running through. different feelings. all in the mind, i think. if you put yourself in a certain position, you're gonna feel a certain something. okay, that might be a tad confusing after reading back but it makes sense in my head. so it's all good :)

i'm almost packed for europe. i'm not bringing my whole wardrobe or anything. not even a handbag. just whatever bag big enough to fit my macbook and my camera. but yet pretty enough that it's not a bulky bag pack -_- when traveling with moms and uncle, style is secondary. yes, we those trekking shoes + track pants people. okay only when we go to third world countries or jungles. apart from that we're the typical shorts and tee kinda people. hehe. but its europe. and it's spring so it's cool. and did i mention its europe? so i'm bringing along some pretty pieces :)

anyway, i wanted to write about something else. but you never know who might read my blog (although i'm certain there's no one except maybe my parents. hello there. but yeah, still.) and some things you just keep to yourself. maybe some other time hehe. but like i said in the last post, very thankful for everything. so thank you god :)

so anyway, here goes. world premiere of my hair. haha. i haven't even uploaded in on fb. only because, like i said, no one reads this thing :p beware: photos of owner on overload :o

my curls on a nice day :)

sigh now i miss em'.

my hair after being blowed straight or straightened.

and my hair nowwww! after a cut and a relaxer.

it's not like straight or anything. my waves will appear! (i hope)

but i love it. even if you don't :p

so, feast your eyes on me. hahaha. okay, goodbye for now loves :)

*i wanna be the girl who makes your bad days better. the one that makes you say, "my life has changed since i met her".

:D

2011-04-13T00:04:00.003+08:00

yeah i fail at keeping up to date with things. hehe. it's almost mid-april can you believe it! time really flies. so yeah i'm just gonna get straight to it. im going on a 2 weeks and a bit europe trip and im leaving on saturday! so here's the plan:

kuala lumpur - frankfurt - prague - hamburg - amsterdam - glasgow - london - kuala lumpur :)

yay! so excited. everything is booked and all. it'll be fun :D can't wait.

anyway, life has been good so far. thank you god. no really, i really am so thankful for everything so far. alhamdulillah.

so on another note. i had a haircut today! hmm it's not super short or anything. it's shoulder length. but my curls are sadly gone. if you see me these coming days it might be straight but fret not, the waves will appear in due time. so its not completely straight - i didnt like had rebonding or anything. i had it "relaxed" so it'll be more of a loose wave type thing. i think :/ well, i hope. hehe.

dad's coming in from abu dhabi end of this week i think. and im leaving for perth a week after i come back from europe. hmm mixed feelings. only cause i've been in kl for a while. but it'll be good. i'll be back in kl even before you can say "goodbye!" hehehe.

okay time to sleeep! goodnight loves. wherever you are.

*you're far far away from me. i don't know much about you. but i like what i see :)

2011-04-01T21:04:00.002+08:00

TODAY IS THE FIRST OF APRIL :D

fifteen sleeps till an exciting two weeks! can't wait, can't wait.

just got back from redang - so much fun even though it rained. went snorkelling which was awesomeeeeeee.

okay will update with a more acceptable post. i gotta go! laters :D

sunday .

2011-03-20T11:51:00.002+08:00

these days, i hate sundays. cause sundays now means that its the end of the weekend. and i don't like the weekend coming to an end. i look forward to the weekend a lot now. don't get me wrong tho. i look forward to tomorrow, everyday.

anyway, it's mid-march (already! i know). time has flew by so quickly that sometimes i forget what happened yesterday. like i said before, very much looking forward to april. will fill you in with the details in due time. because now, i have to shower and get ready. toodles!

-_-

2011-03-03T13:50:00.003+08:00

really, i fail at keeping up to date. so last i wrote, i was leaving for padang, indonesia. a few days after i got back from padang, i left for abu dhabi. was there for a week and a bit. that was fun. leaving for johor bahru tomorrow for kak long's wedding weekend. march shall be a stay-in-kl month. nothing planned for march yet but april is going to be a blast! won't go into details now. maybe closer to the date :) but one thing's for sure - i am very, very, very excited for april !

okay will write soon :)

*and maybe someday we'll figure all this out .

2011-02-01T19:56:00.003+08:00

okay so i think its about time that this blog comes alive again. i've been leaving it in the corner for far too long. like i said in the last post, i am now back in kl again. been here for a week now. still haven't decided how long for. was in pangkor for the weekend, and leaving for padang, indonesia, tomorrow. i know, talk about taking a breather. traveling has always been a big part of my life. most of my friends in kl whine about the lack of time i spend in kl itself when i'm back for my breaks. but hey, i ain't complaining :)

i thank god that i have been very fortunate to have travelled everywhere, near and far. and truth be told, i look forward to holidays each year. there's always a family trip planned out of nowhere. one of the many things i love about my family. having a pilot for a dad is great too. i get to go to a lot of different places even if its for a short while. it balances out really. dad takes us to big cities - shops, cafes, designer goods, touristy places. and mom and uncle takes us to third world countries, developing cities, jungles, uncivilized and untouched wonders. so really, i get the best of both worlds :)

i really do love to travel. see new things, meet new people, soak up the different cultures and atmosphere. sure, things can never beat being home. be it kl, or perth. but being on a plane, going somewhere new and totally unfamiliar just gives me a rush. and then coming back, well that's a whole different feeling there.

so thank you god. thank you for giving me many, many, wonderful opportunities to see the world. i don't think i can ever get tired of it. despite the hours spent on planes, in airports and in beds not my own.

"the world is a book, and those who do not travel only read a page."

2011-01-28T20:03:00.002+08:00

okay, so, im back in kuala lumpur.

haha that was quick.

just got in two days ago.

loving it :D

hi !

2011-01-14T13:28:00.002+08:00

i am back in perth!

and i have a million things to do! (read: study)

will post again when it's all over - next week hopefully.

wish me luck !

loves.

surrounded by those familiar walls ,

2010-12-07T02:09:00.003+08:00

and that one colourful wall. and i feel happy again. it feels really good to be home in shah alam. driving has been crazy, food has been great, weather has been humid. so really, kuala lumpur has been good to me. although i got sick yesterday. but i should be up and running by tomorrow.

so it's off to bed. sleepy as. more exciting things tomorrow :) goodnight loves.

quick word .

2010-11-28T13:03:00.001+08:00

only TWO days till kuala lumpur :D

and i still haven't packed. not a single thing. hehe. still need to buy a few things. will start packing very soooooon.

excited as .

loves.

tres .

2010-11-27T01:46:00.004+08:00

finally over. feels good. today has been a good day. lets hope everything works out fine. three days till home as of now :)

never thought i'd say this, but nicki minaj has some good songs.

for instance, moment 4 life is really good. listen. one of my favourite now. (click, click!)

only because i'm in love with drake :D

how can you not, right? :)

(*pictures taken from google)

so anyway, i'm gonna catch up on sleep now. so many things to do in these couple of days. but very much looking forward to kuala lumpur <3

*you don't seem to understand that i-i-i'm ready for ya .

still one. and five as of right now .

2010-11-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

fear |fi(ə)r| noun: an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.
starting to feel scared of this last paper. i'm just awfully terrified that i'll forget everything. i have this terriblething or habit that happens to me during exam period. well you can't really call it a habit cause it's not like abad habit like biting your nails or something. but i panic. and this has been happening since high school.give me an assignment or an essay to write and i'll do fine but exams just give me the worst jitters. i panic.and i panic bad. and i don't know how to overcome it. i mean once i'm actually sitting the exam and start writing, you't think this panic attack would go away. but i sit through a state of panic for sometimes almostentirely through. it does go away when i remind myself to breathe and take it easy. that's all i can do. breathe, pray and slowly work my way through the paper. god i hate this feeling. i really do.

please just please let it be okay.

i think i cover my stress and fear up pretty well aye. hah :/

s e v e n .

2010-11-23T21:50:00.005+08:00

ohmygoodness. it feels like forever till my last paper. it's like ive already been on a one week break only to end with almost another week. i am really sick of studying already. but one's gotta do what one's gotta do right. it's like friday will never come. but i mean, its tuesday already. so it's coming. and believe me when i say I WILL BE FREAKED OUT on thursday. as usual. i'm always like that. but this last paper is a tough one, i know. hence the freaking out.

which is why i keep reminding myself that it's only seven days till home time. only seven as of today. which i am looking forward to. most people are leaving in these couple of days. except fiza, who's leaving the day after me. actually its a few hours after so please don't make a big deal out of it blondie :p but yeah, kl for a bit wouldn't be a bad idea actually. after the amount of studying i've been through these past few months. make that after this whole semester. it has been one crazy ride. but i am very close to saying that i made it through, alive. but we'll hold on to that thought and check back in a couple of days.

gah i have a splitting headache. must be all this biochemistry. sheeesh .

hello, i miss all of you :)

and more .

*i just hope you miss me a little when i'm gone .

one paper and only a bit of sanity left .

2010-11-16T01:19:00.004+08:00

hello world. how are we? good, i hope. i've been doing alright. made it through two papers and thank you god, i am alive still. now lets just hope i make it till the 26th without pulling anymore hair out or burning books. i kid, i kid. maybe not burning, just tearing and throwing :p

so anyway. it is the 16th already. which means i am exactly two weeks away from home :) but i won't get too excited because i still have fourteen days and an exam to sit. but i am missing a whole lot of people, a whole lot of places and corny as this might sound, my room. i can't wait to be surrounded by those four walls again. the bed, the little steps and the brightness of the colours. hmm :)

random thought: i really like colours. colourful things. i think i'm a very colourful person too. i don't mean i'm always wearing colourful clothes and such. i mean i try to be as bright and as colourful as i can in life. i want my life to be exuberant and alive and bright. just full of colours really. because really, who wants to live a dull, colourless life? okay random thought over.

sorry, that was really random. and really weird. but you know me, i come up with some really out of the topic things sometimes. but yes i am missing home a lot. i blame it on the time of the year. i called mom the day before my first exam and (okay this is some sentimental shit) i started crying. partly because of all the exam stress, okay majorly because of that. but i think it was also partly cause i miss her and home. and then i heard the voices of my three little loves and i cried harder ;( man i really miss them. sigh. i better stop before i get all sappy and emotional.

okay i should go to sleep. oh but before that, selamat hari raya aidil adha for wednesday. and good luck to those with exams in these few days. i need all the luck i can get next week while all you either fly off home or bask in the sun. because yet again, i am the last to finish. great.

goodnight loves .

i have no pictures of aiko and fahim on my mac :(

okayy time to lose some weight and get rid of those eyebags o_o

*sometimes we think too much then we cook up stuff like tough love .

2010-11-10T22:45:00.003+08:00

quick heads up.

i think i might have just gone crazy.

on the verge of just about everything right now.

going crazy, meltdown, breakdown and maybe insanity. wait, i think all those pretty much mean the same.

yeah it's official. i am out of my mind.

sigh. please let everything work out okay. please please please.

thank you.

jump, splat .

2010-11-09T19:23:00.005+08:00

okay since i'm here and logged in (i was trying out to see if a website i did as an assignment can somehow be put up here but i can't so yeah), let me just tell you this.

I AM JUST ABOUT READY TO PULL MY HAIR OUT.

maybe hit my head on the table a couple of times, throw out the books AFTER i tear all the pages and go crazy. i hate this. all the stress, the anxiety, the fear is really getting to me now. god help me. please let the three papers be somewhat of a breeze. really, i'm even going easy on the wish. SOMEWHAT breezy. now 30th of november, get your butt here quick.

loves.

december, come quick .

2010-11-02T13:19:00.003+08:00

tuesday, second november twenty-ten. can you believe it's november already! man. i'm in the library finishing up a stupid report and doing some studying. okay so i'm taking a little break to update. have to keep myself sane too. exams are about two weeks away and i need whatever energy, brain cells, focus, (and sanity), to get through it. my first two papers are two days apart then i have an eleven-day gap between the second and the last paper. eleven freaking days. it's both a good and a bad thing. good thing being i get eleven days to study for it but bad cause eleven days is long enough to make me bore myself to death with biochemistry. which i must not do! must study, must study, must studyawnnnn :o

anyhoo. will be back in kl by december. can't wait for all the glorious foooood. not like i'm not fat enough. but c'mon. malaysia has got to be the land of food. and believe it or not i'm actually looking forward to go back to the sweaty heat of kl. i need to run away from the blazing, skin-hurting, sunlight here. it burns i tell you. burns. i don't know how january will be like if november is already this hot.

so, to those facing exams soon, good luck. breathe, pray and just kick butt! and to those, like me, still with assignments to do and exams yet to faced, study hard, study smart, good luck, and you bet we be slaying those papers. loves loves.

i miss my girls :( <3

*i feel the sun creeping up like tick tock, i'm trying to keep you in my head but if not, we'll just keep running from tomorrow with our lips locked .

take hold .

2010-10-17T22:30:00.003+08:00

man it's almost mid october. time really has just flew by. soon it'll be november (exams :/ erk) then it'll be kuala lumpur for the holidays. but unlike before, i'm only going back for a month. so will be here in january :) haven't done summer here, so it'll be good hopefully. only three weeks till the end of semester. the intense stress and fear is starting to kick in. god help me. lets hope everything goes well.

mom's leaving this coming saturday. quite sad actually. no more nagging hehe. but we'll be back home in kl november anyway. oh, 30th november kuala lumpur. save the date :) i'm looking forward to home. although it'll be shorter than usual, it'll be good i know.

i hate this time of the year. all kinds of emotions mashes and make me feel all weird. with exams and assignments and sudden homesick-ness and missing of people and places bunching up just makes me hate it. and this semester proves to be worse than ever cause it's so important for me to get through it. sigh. please let everything be fine.

*i got that new love, new love, waiting for you.

i hate goodbyes .

2010-10-10T14:56:00.003+08:00

i really do. i hate saying goodbye. went to the airport this morning to send eddie off. for good. we were holding back the tears. but once we left, fiza and i just had to let it out a bit. it's hard sending someone you're close to off. i can't imagine if someone really really close to me has to go. it was sad enough sending eddie off. i mean sure, we can always meet up in malaysia but it'll just be different. also hard cause i only go back for holidays and we never know, plans don't always work out. today was the first time i've had to send off a good friend who's going away for good. i hope it won't be the first of many. don't think i can stand the sadness. on the way back, i reminisced the good times we had. from the teh tarik sessions, the makan outings, the random things we talk about, the hanging out at wilson moments, canberra and melbourne trip, the stupid things we laughed at, the gossips and the stories. i'll greatly miss all that. quick shout out - i know we only just met this year but i feel like i've known you all my life. thank you for everything, especially the laughter you've provided us with your lame jokes, your gedikness and your perasan moments. i'll miss all that. that and your dance moves :p as well as your awesome football skills. haha. take care eddie, it has been nice having you around. good luck and all the best in everything. hopefully everything works out for you. im sure things will be okay :) here's to many many more years of laughters and random moments. perth misses you already :)

post me .

2010-10-07T15:36:00.003+08:00

i think its time i write something. apologies for being horrible at keeping up to date these days.

been quite busy these past weeks. not only i had uni work - labs, reports plus studying. my sister got married last weekend! yes. she is now a married woman. so quick shout out - congratulations and best wishes for the both of you :)

it is now almost the end of week ten of the semester. only about 3 weeks left and then its exams (erk :/). planning on going back in december. i have to anyway, my sister's receptions will be then. looking forward to it yes. it'll be good. a couple of starbucks sessions wouldn't hurt either :)

the weather has been crazy here. it is hot as today. it's like we skipped a whole season and went straight to summer. imagine what summer will be like if it's already this hot now. can't bloody wait.

anyway, i don't have deep thoughts or world news or love stories to write about right now. actually, even if i do, i don't think i'll blog about it. some things, sometimes, are better off written somewhere else. i've always looked at this blog as an outlet for me to just talk about general things. like my day to day life, random thoughts and just little bits and pieces. nothing too important. there you go, another random thought.

life amuses me. it always has. still does. and probably will.

*we are young, we are free, stay up late, we don't sleep, got our friends, got the night, we'll be alright :)

2010-09-21T17:44:00.003+08:00

was in johor bahru for the weekend :) just got back yesterday. 'twas good. ate a lot. went through singapore, so didn't get to go back to kl. but it's all good. now at home, waiting for moms and kak dina. they just got in from kl today.

should be uploading heaps of photos soon. but maybe sometime next week. so many things to do. and so many people coming over too from malaysia for my sister's wedding. which is like in two weeks time. and i'm still kinda sick. my throat is getting better but this nose! this nose is just annoying. must get better soon.

anyhoo. i forgot what else i was gonna write here. so i will write later. attention span right now it down below normal level. hee :) loves.

smile, you're too pretty to frown :)

2010-09-07T00:39:00.004+08:00

today i did something that made me feel so good. done, done and done. now all is left is two forms for me to fill in and send, and the rest of the year for me to face. it feels good. study hard, pray hard, smile more, laugh harder and just live life. twenty-eleven, i can't wait :)

lets hope everything goes well.

*and i'm telling you, that i've never felt this.

so then i said,

2010-09-04T15:04:00.005+08:00

i had whiffs of ideas came through but about a minute ago they were all gone. now i totally forgot what i was going to write. so i'm just gonna start somewhere and go from there. the study break is fast approaching its end. its already saturday :( its already almost the middle of semester. week 6. time has really just zoomed past us. it's september. even 2010 is fast approaching its end. i'm glad tho. can't wait to see where next year will take me. but in order for that to happen, i need to get through this semester first. insyaallah.

the study break has been filled with sleep, studying and assignments, food, more sleep and a collection of other things. had futsal yesterday. i really am in love with the sport. it just feels really good when i'm playing futsal. good workout too :)

anyhoo, raya is around the corner! like a week away. so glad it's on a weekend. at least we get to go beraya and not be stuck in uni or something. going back to jb the weekend after next. only for the weekend tho for boboy's wedding and epy's birthday :) i'm gonna stuff myself silly with food in that very very short period of time. sounds like a good plan. then it's back home to perth and i think mom comes the day after! uni for a week then another break with almost everyone from kl coming over in preparation for the big wedding! :D hehe. i'm sure my sister is excited as hell with the date being not too far away. quick shout out: i wish you and abg el the best in the future and may everything work out good for both of you :) i love you. sista to sistaaaaaa !

so yes, now its back to the articles, the assignments, the readings, the graphs, the calculations, the lab work, the lecture slides and the long hours in uni. my oh my, how exciting. i'm literally jumping for joy. can't bloody wait.

*i choose you everyday .

home ,

2010-09-03T01:34:00.002+08:00

been wanting to write about this for a bit but just didn't get to it. it was malaysia's independence day a few days ago. 31st august. 53 years. and on that day everyone was in the "merdeka" spirit. tweets and fb status, bbm's all around, wishing malaysia well and celebrating this independence. i, was also a part of this. albeit lacking in the spirit department.

for some reason, i couldn't find that joy, the spark that everyone had. its not that i don't love the country or that i've forgotten my roots, heck no. i am a very proud malaysian. i am glad that i was born there and that the culture is embedded in me. but when i say that perth is home, it surprises people. i love malaysia. but i love australia too. and i love perth. and there's no denying or hiding that fact. and to be honest, i feel more at home in perth than in kl. and i don't plan on leaving australia any time soon.

i feel like when i say these things, the immediate assumption is that i've forgotten my roots, where i come from and what not. which is a load of bull if you ask me. just because i call perth home, it doesn't mean i don't love my birthplace. malaysia will forever be a part of me, it will forever be home for me and i will forever love it. but perth, perth is here. and my life is here. so here is home to me. i admit, i am so comfortable in australia. life is just so much better here. i miss kl sure. and it's always a good feeling when the plane you're in lands on that klia runway. but the feeling i get when i'm back in perth, driving along and seeing perth city, just warms me up. i feel so much at peace. so calm, and serene.

so yes, i call perth home. and i love this place despite it being a hole that everyone claims it to be (its not, really). and i love malaysia too. the food, the heat, the buzz, the people and the concrete jungle that it is. the two places just give me two different feelings and i'm sorry to burst your bubble when i say i'm at home now.

*what i see in you, is where i want to be .

2010-08-31T00:33:00.002+08:00

magnum ego caramel. yummmm :)

saturday .

2010-08-28T23:31:00.004+08:00

you know when say you had an accident like you sprain your ankle and then it gets better but it is prone to injury every time you do something? yeah well my left ankle is exactly that. i fell sometime in 2007 or so and it swelled up like crazy, got better and was fine for the next two year or so. but thats really cause i didn't do much of running or sports or anything that may cause injuries. so anyway, i've been playing quite a bit of sports this year. futsal and touch rugby. so i sprained my left ankle during futsal, TWICE. but it got better and i played more futsal and all. until two nights ago, i got a ball kicked straight at my ankle while playing futsal again. a guy was trying to pass the ball to one of his team mate but i was right in front of him trying to get the ball, he shoots and BAM, i screamed and fell to the ground. the pain was unbelievable. and now i have a swollen left ankle which is massive. but it's all good. i can walk. hehe. just hurts cause i can't exactly lay it down without it touching the surface.

but anyhoo. had a little photo shoot today with fiza. it was so much fun. very happy with what i did. we had a few wardrobe changes and some props and it was all laughter and smiles. and hyde park is beautiful :) will put up some pictures of that on facebook and maybe a few on here soon.

one a one week study break now. which is good. gonna do some studying and assignment, maybe another photo outing and catch up on some sleep. heheh. its also almost halfway through puasa which means raya should be around the corner too :) glorious food much? hehe. might go back to jb for a weekend for boboy's wedding. still in the plans but.

oh i read on the news how a lady was trying to smuggle a tiger cub from bangkok to iran by drugging the cub with anti-depressants and and placed in a luggage bag alongside a soft toy tiger! what has the world come to? i may not be the number one animal lover but cruelty towards animal is not just inhumane it is horrible. god.

anyway, gonna go now. write soon :) loves.

tim burton the exhibition in melbourne.

beautiful queenstown, new zealand <3

*i kind of feel like giving the universe a big hug right now.

2010-08-27T12:09:00.002+08:00

reading other people's blog just makes me want to blog more. but truth is, i write solely because i like to. it doesn't matter if no one reads it or a thousand people scan through it. i don't have them counters that count how many people visit your page or live feed to see who is reading your blog - i simply don't see the point. it's like living in a society that measures its population by the number of friends they have, the number of attraction they bring or the number of replies they get.

why can't we just write for the sake of writing?

okay enough ranting. i need to leave for class. don't want to be late.
loves :)

just a spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down .

2010-08-25T20:20:00.006+08:00

okay so i know i said i'll write more. or get back into posting again at least. and i haven't been doing much of it. apologies. will start as of now. hihi.

classes has been a-okay so far. mondays are pretty much lazy days, tuesdays are okay, wednesdays are ALWAYS long, thursdays are free days and fridays aren't so much fun cause i finish at about 5. classes finish at about 5 for me everyday anyway. but hey, been doing that for the past 2 years and a half anyway so no surprise there.

fasting has been going good too. i miss the bazaar ramadhan back in kl :( but you gotta make the most of it right. so we've had a couple of different dishes for 'buka', so it doesn't feel too bad. raya won't be so chaotic as the previous years i suppose as its only myself and the sister here. but it'll be fun cause hopefully it'll be during the weekend so we get to go around to a few open houses. we'll make it fun :)

can't believe it's already nearing the end of august. 2010 has been alright. a few ups, a few downs, some hits and misses, but the past is past. all we have to do, or all we can do, is to move forward. so forward i go.

sydney harbour bridge <3

"do you know why a car's windshield is so large and the rearview mirror is so small? because our past is not as important as our future. look ahead and move on."

hi,

2010-08-14T19:36:00.003+08:00

okay, must start blogging again. i forgot how it felt like to type and type and type. but just typing these few words feels good. mad apologies for the lack of posts. two weeks in of second semester. third day of ramadhan. life has been okay so far. three weeks back in kl, two weeks going around three eastern states, and now back home in perth. sydney was great. climbed the sydney harbour bridge which was spectacular. canberra was picturesque. we lost playing futsal but its okay. there's always next year ;) and melbourne was just love. melbourne was as always just beautiful. still dreaming of the day i'll live there. soon, hopefully. but perth is forever home :)

onto other things, my sister is getting married soon! october. exciting stuff huh. so grown up now. getting married and all. soon it'll be onto kids and grandkids. hehehe. wow imagine that. so everyone will be coming over late september. mom, uncle, dad, my aunties and cousins. it'll be a wonderful event, i'm sure.

been listening to justin bieber's somebody to love on repeat. the one with usher. i love love it. i admit, bieber is a tad bit annoying but his songs are good. anyhoo, may the rest of your weekend be good. i need a shower. loves.

*we don't stop loving someone, we simply learn to live without them .

melbourne city<3

meet my blondie bff, hafizah adlia :)

love youuu blondie!

soon ,

2010-08-01T02:25:00.001+08:00

I know I've been such a slacker at keeping up to date. Always happens during my summer and winter breaks. Mad apologies. But rest assure I'll be back and posting very very soon. Once semester starts (this monday actually yay), I'll start posting again. So, till then, take care, be safe, smile and smell the fresh air. And oh! I'm posting from my new baby iPad<3

*and I'm waiting for the day, what am I waiting for?

2010-05-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

exams soon. cant write much. need to study. man i hate this time of the year.

urgh.

2010-04-28T23:52:00.002+08:00

i've been horrible with keeping up to date with blogging. i apologise tremendously. i don't know what happened there but i'll try to update every time i can yes. things have been going well so far. it's almost the end of semester :/ which means exams are creeping closer. man time has just flew by us. its already almost may. almost the end of my first semester of my final year. final year. god, i can't wait to finish this. now lets hope all goes well.

apart from uni, i've been playing a bit of sports lately. namely touch rugby and futsal. planning on going to the masca ncg in canberra for futsal in july. canberra and melbourne yo :D ah melbourne, i can't wait to see you again. won't be going back to kl midyear :/ but it's okay. i'll make the most of it here. hey, gotta see what perth has got to offer.

oh! sprained my ankle on sunday during futsal. it's getting better but still hurts a bit when i move it too much. i really think something's wrong with my left foot tho. even from before the sprained. hmm. what elseee. mom's here for a couple of weeks. her birthday's coming up too. so i think we're gonna have something this weekend for her. just a little family/close friends type thing.

anyway, that should be it. im sure there's plenty more to tell but right now i just cant think of anything. be safe now. later loves :)

*breathe. just remember to breathe .

:)

2010-04-11T01:04:00.002+08:00

hmm havent posted in a bit. have to get back to the routine of posting. life has been just normal. i go through the same motions day in, day out. i want something new, something better, something interesting, just something to happen already. but i have no regrets on how my days are turning out to be. i'm just going to take it a day at a time. sometimes, decisions are to be made. changes are not necessarily bad. embrace everything. a new beginning, starts now.

"can you hear the melody, can you see the sounds. enter your body, and travel up and down"

life.

2010-03-16T00:29:00.002+08:00

sometimes your day won't turn out well, the sun don't shine as bright, the wind don't blow as you will, your car doesn't start, your hair is in a mess, and some people are not too nice. but that doesn't mean your life goes on a halt.

there's always tomorrow if today doesn't work out. one of my favourite quote is, which i have posted somewhere in one of the last post, "i am not afraid of tomorrow, for i have seen yesterday and i love today". today might have not been all that great for you, but look at the bright side - today is over. whatever happened today, however today might have turned out for you, love it and look forward to tomorrow.

i'd like to think that i have a very positive outlook on life. i find life to be very interesting. it makes you ponder, makes you think, makes you cry and laugh and love. i love life. i thank god everyday for it. now, give thanks for what you've got :)

later loves.

ma ,

2010-03-11T15:58:00.003+08:00

i don't know what else i should say to you. to hurt you, would be the last thing i want to do. it's not even a thing i want to do. to see or hear you cry would break me. you have been the best, you have done no wrong. you couldn't have done anything wrong. i apologize profusely if i have hurt you in any way at all, i don't know what else i can do. i want you to be proud of me. i want you to not have to cry because of me. i tear if you tear, i will shatter if you weren't there for me. i don't want you to lose trust in me. i don't want you to lose your faith in me. i don't know what else i should say to you.

you are the last person i want to let down ma. i don't want to hurt or disappoint you. never in a million years. i love you.

cough, sniff .

2010-03-07T00:47:00.002+08:00

oh hello, haven't been blogging in a bit. hmm things have been okay. i'm on a one week uni break. quite an early break if you ask me. but hey, i'm not complaining. the weather has been getting a bit cooler these days which is good. i was really hating the hot weather. but we never know what might come right. i mean, perth weather is a bit crazy sometimes.

i haven't been too well these past few days. i had flu - blocked/runny nose, cough - really bad sore throat and my joints hurt. now the flu's gone but my throat hurts like hell and my body aches. sure it's partly my fault cause i went and played touch yesterday but i had to. and i might go tomorrow too. depending on how this body ache is. like it hurts to move. but i will overcome it. hehe.

anyway, life has been okay. i'm just waiting for it to be great. later loves.

two cents .

2010-02-25T16:37:00.002+08:00

some people say that humans are simple, some say we are complex. i have yet to figure out what we are. i know for a fact that most of us are confused. we change our minds constantly, true. but we also should have a firm believe when it comes to certain things. we do things based on what we feel, what we think is right, what we know, what we don't know, the thrill of things, the risks that comes with, the challenge that it might bring. heck, theres a lot of things. but we must always know what it is.

we as humans, we fear a lot of things. we all have different fears. i, for example, i fear god, i fear death, i fear rejection, i fear failing, i fear snakes and needles, amongst other things. sure, the first two is really what most humans fear. but nonetheless, they are still fears. we need to take risks in order to overcome the fears. we need to move forward and see what's out there for us instead of dwelling in the fear. sometimes all we need is confidence and trust. and maybe a little tug or push from the people around us. look fear in the eye, and tell it to get stuffed. because if we keep fearing the things we fear, we are never going to go anywhere. we're never going to move forward. it's like driving, if you're at an intersection and you're too scared to turn, you're never going to turn. sometimes we need to make a decision that we will never know what the outcome will be. because if we don't, we will never know what it will bring to us.

i say, it's better to regret something we did than to regret something we didn't do. i try to live my life with no regrets. because regrets, to me is like dwelling in the past. why have regrets? we should just take whatever we did and learn from it, turn it around the next time. i don't dwell either. because i think it's a waste of time.

sometimes we make wrong decisions in life. but sometimes we need to that. because one wrong decision might just be the best decision we ever make. i say live life to the fullest, try anything and everything you want at least once, learn from your mistakes, move on and be happy.

"i am not afraid of tomorrow, for i have seen yesterday and i love today."

this song's been on repeat .

2010-02-18T21:53:00.002+08:00

Too much of anything can make you sick
Even the good can be a curse
Makes it hard to know which road to go down

Knowing too much can get you hurt

Is it better? Is it worse?
Are we sitting in reverse?
It's just like we're going backwards
I know where I want this to go
Driving fast but let's go slow
What I don't wanna do is crash, no

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

Now every day ain't gon' be no picnic
Love ain't a walk in the park
All you can do is make the best of it now
Can't be afraid of the dark

Just know that you're not in this thing alone
There's always a place in me you can call home
Whenever you feel like we're growing apart
Let's just go back, back, back, back, back to the start

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

I don't know where we're heading I'm willing and ready to go
We've been driving so fast we just need to slow down and just roll

Anything that's worth having
Is sure enough worth fighting for
Quitting's out of the question
When it gets tough gotta fight some more

We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
We gotta fight, fight, fight, fight, fight for this love
If it's worth having it's worth fighting for

- fight for this love by cheryl cole.

week 1 .

2010-02-16T11:18:00.004+08:00

oh hello world. hmm sorry haven't been blogging much. things have been just a bit overwhelming actually. okay i lie. things haven't been that overwhelming. it's been quite good actually. classes just started yesterday. my timetable could be better but i'm not complaining much. it's okay i guess. final year finally here huh. this year is going to go by quickly, i hope. so the start of 2010 has been fine so far, here's to it being a great year :)

good vibrations was last sunday. and it was awesome! eventho the killers cancelled out on us, it was still good. rob thomas this sunday! yay. hehe can't wait to see him live. should be good :)

anyway, things have been looking up so far. god, please make sure it stays that way.

later loves.

i miss my room back home :(

hello perth .

2010-02-11T20:06:00.003+08:00

back in perth. it feels very weird to be back this time around. i really don't know why tho. i think the feeling hasn't sunk in yet. hmm, lets hope things are gonna turn out okay.

OH THE KILLERS CANCELS THEIR PERTH SHOW :(

like what the hell! i was looking forward to them. sucks big time.

but its okay. there's other acts and all. but man, the killers. haih. really is killing me. haha.

going to the movies soon. watching valentines day with the sister and ana and her sisters. taylor lautner, i want youuuuu :)) heheh.

okay i think i need the toilet now! later loves .

representin' :)

end .

2010-02-09T21:12:00.003+08:00

whoa, things have been a bit crazy lately. leaving for perth tomorrow :( yes, im feeling a tad bit sad. ive packed and all. i just need to clean the room up a bit. but all i can do is sit on the floor and just look around. i took so long to actually start packing - heck, i was even feeling a bit sad that i had to pack. but things will be okay yeah.

I SAW KRIS ALLEN YESTERDAY :) well i didnt get to go to his showcase but i went to his autograph session and guess who shook his hand ? :D ten points for you! haha yes indeed, it was me. haha. i was meant to see him seriously. luck, luck. but not lucky enough i guess cause i didnt get to go to the showcase. but i had a good night anyway :) hehe.

well anyway, i guess this is goodbye for us. im still thinking on when i should come back next. we'll see how thing goes. so kl, i'll miss you :)

*i had an awesome time here, pity you didn't have the time to be part of it.

;

2010-02-05T01:37:00.002+08:00

i would have rather you said something.

i would have rather you didn't turn and leave.

i would have rather you tell me what you think.

i would have rather you did a lot of things. but i can't make you, or force you.

i guess i would have rather me do something too. call me a coward, but going all out and getting rejected is not part of my plans.

but what choice do i have ?

2010-02-01T20:18:00.000+08:00

okay we lost :( so not funny.

watched the game last night while hyperventilating and sweating and screaming.

so many opportunities but no goals. okay one goal. one that i really didn't think were all that.

one thing's for sure tho, arsenal, i still love you. and you too fabregas, even if you played like shit :)

just got home from digital mall in pj. had an early dinner and i am so full. i cant believe its already the first of february. time really flies. jt felt like only yesterday we welcomed 2010. this means theres only 9 days till i leave for perth again. truth be told, im not looking forward to going back. but i guess all good things must come to an end. and this holiday is slowly meeting its end. i don't mind it really. i mean falling back into the usual routine should be easy. only this time it'll be with new things to learn, new people to meet, and plus this year being the final year has quite a bit pushing for it. i don't know. im just gonna take one day as it comes. try to live life the fullest. and live to not regret a single thing i did. here's to life :)

:o

2010-01-31T17:38:00.002+08:00

okay arsenal v man utd tonight. ARSENAL PLEASE DO ME PROUD :)

i want to watch the game but at the same time i don't. like the anticipation will kill me! what if they win? what if they lose? arghh. okay its more of what if they lose. but they're not gonna. man utd can go jump off a cliff thanks.

fabregas, i'm banking on you.

later loves.

:D

2010-01-29T14:33:00.002+08:00

"and i know this much is true

baby you have become my addiction

i'm so strung out on you

i can't really move

but i like it

and it's all because of you,

it's all because of you.

i can't never get enough,

you're the sweetest drug :)"

OKAY STILL NOT OVER THE NE-YO MOOD. i want to watch him live again and again and again pls.

OH ANOTHER NEWS IS KRIS ALLEN IS COMING TO KL 8TH FEBRUARY. I WILL BE THERE THANKS. hehe. i really wanna go. i think its a sign. im leaving kl on the 10th. and kris allen is on the 8th. i'm meant to go. hehe.

okay no i have to go to wangsa maju to pick my grandma up. laters.

it's the elephant in the room .

2010-01-27T11:54:00.002+08:00

post number 353. my first post, typed on my new mac :) i am in love with this sleek new baby. the holidays has been good. not too chuffed about the fact that in less than two weeks time, perth awaits and all the stresses in life begins. namely, classes and assignments, tests and exams. but i guess life must go on right.

imagine if we were stuck at the same period in life. even if it was going great, it would still suck. because there's no surprise to it anymore. no new things to discover, learn, live through. things will just look the same and then start to bore you. so i guess even if my holiday is coming to an end, the period after will prove to be not so bad after all.

anyway. since i only have however many days i have left here at home, lets try to make the most out of it yes. i'll start now.

later loves.

gotta live like we're dying .

2010-01-16T10:59:00.002+08:00

oh i just realised that i havent posted anything yet in 2010. so here it is, hello 2010. let's hope you're good to me. it's been great so far. ive been to abu dhabi and paris, had pav over from bali, went all around kl and tomorrow, i'll be going to nepal for a week :) life has been a-okay. in the midst of packing for nepal now. we're going to seremban in a bit. anyway, here's to an awesome year ahead of us all. take care, be safe loves.

:)

:)

2009-12-31T13:23:00.002+08:00

this is post number 353. and it will be the last post for 2009. i wanted to end my 2009 postings on a happier note. 2009 was a great year. i did a lot of fun things, met new friends, went through rough patches, practically just living a big adventure. december has been a mixture of ups and downs but whatever right. why bother on the things that can only make us angry when we can be thankful that we have lived through a year and can now celebrate the end of an awesome year and the start of something we hope to be just as awesome or even better.

here's to an awesome 2010 :)

goodbye 2009, hello 2010. happy new year world .

hate ,

2009-12-24T18:10:00.003+08:00

hate is a strong word.

i hate people who screw you over. i hate people who act like they care, when really, you don't matter to them. i hate people who use you just to fulfill their needs. i hate people who just don't think before they speak or do something. i hate people who will only find you if they need help, but lose you when they're happy and good. i hate those who just leave you behind when they find someone or something new. i hate people who just can't seem to be straight about things and have to lie and snake their way around. i hate those who call themselves a "friend" but aren't there when you need them. and i hate the fact that these people will call you once they read this and ask if you're okay.

there are so many different types of people in the world today. and you can never be too sure who you're befriending. a really good friend can turn into nothing overnight. a person you think you can share almost everything with will be the person who forgets you and can't find the time to return calls or msgs.

hate is a very strong word. i don't normally use it. but i did.

:)

2009-12-07T13:08:00.002+08:00

i'm home :) it feels good. even if the weather is hot and sticky or people are rude, or driving here stresses me out or friends are busy. it still feels good to be home. to sleep on my bed, to sit at the backyard and just look at golfers passing by, to have time just doing nothing with mom, to see my grandma. it just feels right.

the holidays have just begun, here's to a good one. loves loves.

yes yes ,

2009-12-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

four days till good food, warm weather, traffic jam and great companies. can't wait :)

things has been okay so far. haven't been doing much. you know, gone around settling a few things needed to be done before i go back. late night movie marathons, lunches and dinners, ice creams and bubble teas. life has been good. but i hope it'll be better when i get back. so many things and people to catch up on. starbucks, i want you.

the sun, the breeze, the view. oh you know i'm looking forward to that.

later loves.

*that you only meant well, of course you did .

one week .

2009-11-28T19:53:00.002+08:00

whew. exams are over, finally. and now, its seven days till home. seven :) that's exactly a week away. pretty exciting stuff hehe.

i can't wait to see you home. your sight, your smell, your heat. and oh, your food. kl, kl. i've missed you.

later loves.

-

2009-11-25T19:43:00.002+08:00

i know that most people would be excited that they only have one paper left and that everything will be over soon and all. don't get me wrong, i'm looking forward to exams being over and going home and just hanging out. but i am dreading tomorrow's paper. i am just really scared right now. there is too many diagrams and things to remember and i'm afraid that i just don't remember every single one of them. i'm scared that i might forget something or just don't know it. i am really hoping that things go well tomorrow. i know that i will sit the paper, go through it and come out feeling that i've done the best i can. but you just can't help having that dreadful feeling even after everything is over. i really don't know now. i'm scared, i'm nervous, i'm just not looking forward to it much.

*please note that i am trying my hardest and if tomorrow i cry coming out of the exams, believe yourself when you say that i've done my best because as of right now, i really don't know if this best enough is ever good enough.

one, two, three .

2009-11-23T14:24:00.005+08:00

one paper down. two papers left. three days and this time then everything will be done and all there is left is to look forward to home.

however, i still need to go through with the two remaining papers and i'm telling you, it won't be that easy. here i am studying for biochemistry and i still need to study for genetics. i hate having two exams back to back because my studying will also need to be back to back, meaning i have to concentrate on two units rather than just one and it really is doing my head in. and my procrastination and laziness and everything else really isn't helping much either. however i haven't been on facebook for ten days which makes me so proud of myself. ten whole days yay :)

home, home in twelve days. why can't twelve days be tomorrow. home, i want you now.

later loves. enjoy the sun while i crawl my way into the books.

no more you .

2009-11-20T01:32:00.002+08:00

give up, move on, goodbye.

hello first paper. help me god.

close but not quite .

2009-11-19T18:34:00.000+08:00

it is finally thursday. which makes tomorrow friday. which means my first paper is tomorrow. i know i'm probably the only person who's excited that my first paper is tomorrow. but i've waited too long, too long i tell you. but then, after tomorrow, i'm sure i won't want the other two papers to come. the cycle continues. it's okay tho, this will all be over this time next week. and then the countdown for home begins. although really, it already has begun. sixteen days :) that's only about two weeks away. which is awesome. a lot of things planned for december and january which will be super fun.

anyway, reality says hello raina, you still have three papers to sit for - do the wondering after exams. home, i will see you in sixteen days.

*why do all the songs i listen to relates back to you?

2009-11-17T18:36:00.002+08:00

you weren't late. actually, i don't know anymore now.

.

2009-11-17T14:45:00.002+08:00

exams still haven't started. i want it to end. i'm in need of a holiday. and if i may emphasize again, need.

it's raining now. which make my already not-so-chirpy-day even more so not-so-chirpy. to make things simpler, gloomy. dull. sad. down. all of the above.

sometimes i wish things were easier. life was easier. but then, that wouldn't be life now would it.

i don't even know what to write. the words are all in my head, the feelings are all piling into one great ball of stupid but i just can't seem to write anything.

god, i just want exams to be over and done with. please.

I,

2009-11-14T13:58:00.003+08:00

am on facebook hiatus until exams finishes.

will only go on msn if i really need to talk to someone.

will only blog if i need to vent on how good/bad/stupid exams went.

HOME, I WILL SEE YOU IN TWENTY ONE DAYS :)

the sun so bright .

2009-11-12T11:41:00.003+08:00

today is such a gloomy day. the clouds are thick. the rain is drizzling. the wind blows strong. i can hear it through the windows. gloomy as it maybe the day has to go on. time is still moving, leaving us all behind. i need to catch up. or maybe even be one step ahead of it.

first paper in about a weeks' time. i still don't know what i feel. but all i know is that i just want it all to be over. home in a weeks' time sounds better than an exam paper. but, we got to do what we go to do right. and right now, bring on the papers baby.

food. i'm gonna go find some food now :) later loves.

*won't stop till its over, won't stop to surrender .

keep me in mind .

2009-11-06T14:30:00.002+08:00

"our love was lost

but now we found it

our love was lost

and hope was gone

our love was lost

but now we found it

and if you flash your heart

i won't deny it

i promise."

last day of uni. last day of second year. but i still don't think it's over until i finish my last paper on the 26th. i don't know if i want to it to ever come, but i want it to be over. i just want to continue on to my third and final year and have that be over too. lets hope everything works out right.

exams in two weeks time. it feels like its ages away, but the date on my watch is saying otherwise. time is moving so fast that it feels like if you blink, you'll miss everything. time is moving fast that it makes you feel like you have to just stop to take all of it in. stop to make sense of what you've been doing. stop to let it sink. just stop and breathe.

right now life seems to be flowing okay. sure, i wish it could be better sometimes. but when you have a great family, awesome friends and love all around, why complain right? i'm looking forward to december and january. i'm looking forward to spend time with my great family and awesome friends and to share the love around. i guess at the end of the day it really just comes to that doesn't it. family, friends, love. life oh life, you amuse me sometimes.

2009-11-04T20:53:00.001+08:00

"where'd you go? i miss you so."

-

2009-11-03T01:10:00.001+08:00

i think humans are very confused creatures. we think we know everything, when really we know nothing at all. we find faults in others but rarely in ourselves. we blame everything we can on other people, or the world, or god when the problem is our own self. when things don't go our way, we curse and throw a fit but we forget that there's a solution to these things. all we have to do is take the time to breathe and think of one. but no, we'd rather not. it takes too much effort and energy to think of a solution when pointing the finger on someone else is just much more easier. we often think that humans are complex and difficult but we're not. we are simple. we don't want a lot of things. we don't need a lot of things. we are simple. but why do we tend to complicate our lives, our world, ourselves? i don't know either.

november is going to be a crazy month. exams, exams, i dislike you with a passion. why make my life so hard?

thirty two days to you. yes, i look forward to you.

best weekend :)

2009-10-21T20:22:00.003+08:00

guess who had a good weekend? me, me, me :) sunday was the best. but overall, the whole weekend was good. i didn't do much really but it was just good. friday i did some housekeeping work and studied. friday night i went to curtin for the annual multicultural week pasar malam - there was a lot of people. like tonnes. like you had to wait forever in line to buy food. so i didn't eat much. saturday i studied a bit, folded some laundry and all. saturday night was the raya event organized by the malay association here which was surprisingly quite fun. sure most of the crowd was older and most of the performers were pretty much unknown to me but i still had fun. jayjay was awesome. he came and performed four songs which was loveee i tell you. he's voice is still awesome and he is still awesome. the rest wasn't so bad really. hehe. then mina slept over that night because sunday, ah sunday, was the one movement music festival :)

sunday was the best. i don't know why but maybe if i had started the day earlier, it probably would've been better but i wouldn't ask for anything different because whatever time i started the day, i had awesome fun. so sunday was the one movement music festival at esplanade in the city. i went with mina, sabreena, ana and amy. then met kavel and gaya there. the thing started at 12 but we got there about 2-3ish. so, we missed out on one buck short. but its okay. the rest of the day made up for it. okay i'm just gonna cut to the chase now. we saw one buck short and bunkface at the festival. we met the lead singer of bunkface, sam :) and a few other guys who were with them. they're such nice people :) new friends, yay! ahh he's so cuteee the singer. highlight of the day definitely. gahh very happy :D
the rest of the night was good too. kate miller-heidke was a bit weird but her songs were nice. hilltop hoods were superbly good. great, great performance. it was worth the wait and the getting crushed by big aussie guys around me. they were really good. but all in all, awesome awesome day :D now, bring on more summer festivals!

okay i want to post pictures up but i don't know why blogger won't let me. i don't know where my blogger toolbar went boohoo :/ okay i'll post up pictures when things are fixed then.

booh .

2009-10-17T15:38:00.005+08:00

it is unbelievably hot today. where has spring gone too ? this feels more like summer to me. we kinda just skipped spring this year. the last few days were good tho. sunny with just the right amount of cool wind. but yesterday and today, omg talk about no wind. which results in me just staying inside the house, sitting right under the aircond. which is okay, cause i got some studying happening.

anyway, raya event tonight. what to wear, what to wear. one movement tomorrow yo ! should be fun. later loves.

"cause you had a good girl, that's a keeper,

you had a good girl but didn't know how to treat her,

sill boy"

*tick tock on the clock .

2009-10-12T16:38:00.003+08:00

perth, perth, perth. perth has been okay. back to the old routine. only two months, make that just a bit under, till kl again. the weather has been nice. uni has been yeah a-okay. nothing exciting. but you know, exams in about a months time, so study sessions are in order. i can't believe that second year is coming to an end like soon. i'm glad, sure. but at the same time it's a bit nerve-wrecking. i mean, final year next year. talk about fast. time has flew by so quick. it only felt like yesterday i was graduating from high school. but all is good. bring on the next chapter of my life, thanks.

a few things happening this coming weekend. one of my sister's friend is coming over from malaysia so they're going on a road trip down south leaving me alone this weekend :( but like i said, a few things happening. saturday night is this raya event that the malay community here is organizing. so i might go for that. then sunday is this event called one movement music festival and since i got a ticket, i might go for that too. so yeah, should be fun. as well as studying somewhere in there too. hehe.

okay, going now. floors to mop, toilets to clean !

leaving home, for home .

2009-10-02T12:34:00.005+08:00

leaving for perth tomorrow morning. i don't know what i feel really. and i know, i say this every time i'm home. i don't know, just the idea of uni waiting when i get back is just something i really don't want to be thinking about right now. but hey, you got to do what you got to do, they say. i guess thats what coming home can do to you. even it had to be only two weeks, the impact that the two weeks give, the fun, the joy, the laughters. they just well up inside you and you don't want them to leave. but perth awaits. life has to be continued. it's okay kl, i'm only going away for 2 months. i'll see you again in december. and this time, it'll be longer :)

quick shoutout to my dearest kambing. happy birthday yaw ! i have to be the person who has wished you the most haha!

now i'm just sitting in the house, soaking in all the goodness the past 2 weeks have given me. sigh. i'll miss you.

*lidah kelu sedangkan aku mahu kau tahu, aku cinta padamu, aku benci padamu .

home for raya :)

2009-09-19T22:05:00.002+08:00

finally home, yay. got in yesterday morning. and things have been going pretty okay so far. managed to go to the bazaar ramadhan out at the stadium yesterday and today. although there wasn't a lot of stalls, it was still worth it. went out looking for sparklers and all but came home with nil :( i think the people who sells them are probably home preparing for raya. just like any other family, we too are preparing for raya, which i think is tomorrow but isn't too sure cause i didn't see the 'pengumuman raya' but there has been a few takbir raya on tv so i'm assuming that it is tomorrow.

but this year, the preparation isn't so big. compared to last year when we were in perth. but i guess that was cause everyone was in perth. this year, everyone in perth is back in kl for raya. and we're celebrating our raya in shah alam this year, first after about five years. then we'll be going back to jb. but unlike any other year, this year, we're having an open house. never have we done anything on a slightly larger scale but since we're all back this year and all, we've decided that one is in order. so that should be fun.

anyway, just wanted to give a little shout :

selamat hari raya

maaf zahir dan batin :)

thousand apologies for any of my wrongdoings - be it something i did, something i said or even things i did not do or said. may this syawal bring us many happiness and joy. enjoy the food and the company :) loves.

uno, one, satu .

2009-09-17T01:25:00.002+08:00

i literally have one day left till home. this time tomorrow, i'll be on a plane homebound. and friday morning, bright and early, the sights, sounds and smells of kl will greet me. i can almost feel the heat that you get walking out of the airport doors. and it feels good. it really does.

now let's just get through tomorrow shall we. or shall i say, the rest of today ? good morning, dear nocturnals. and goodnight, fellow sleepyheads .

*and my excitement of seeing you slowly fades away .

hi, nice to meet you .

2009-09-13T03:52:00.002+08:00

liverpool won, chelsea won, heck even manchester united won. but arsenal, well arsenal lost. 2-4 against manchester city. silly lilly. was switching back and forth between the arsenal game and the liverpool game. arsenal didn't play too well. but not much complain here.

watching this show called "solitary" on foxtel. it is crazy i tell you. like these people are put in individual pod-like confinement and are given tasks, or more like puzzles. and the contestants can seriously go mental! and just watching it makes you feel like you're going crazy too. but it's something interesting to watch.

oh it's already sunday. 4 sleeps, not including tonight, till home. i cannot believe raya is coming soon. duit raya please ? hehe. might be going to touch rugby tomorrow. and an open house (no, not the raya open house, the inspection open house). if i wake up in time that is. okay going to sleep now. goodnight, good morning. :)

:o

2009-09-10T19:18:00.002+08:00

it's thursday which makes it eight days till home :)

okay, i should stop counting down the days. hehe but i can't help it :) i'm really looking forward to raya back home. i mean after about five years of raya-ing here, it feels quite good to be celebrating it back home with all the cousins again. however, it still won't be the whole alqudsy clan in jb this year. this time around, amina and her sisters will be celebrating in perth. oh well. but i'm looking forward to it still. hehe.

oh it feels good to have a few assignments handed in these past couple of days. but, don't feel too good just yet. next week will be full on. midsems! pray to god everything will work out fine :) i've crossed out 3 out of 7 things that needs to be done in this month alone. that's almost half, that's not that bad right? shit, only two more days till next week comes :/ going to uni in a bit. need to do some studying and assignments. i only go to uni cause the girls go. if they don't, i might as well just stay home but home is just too distracting. sure, i still go on facebook and msn when i'm in uni. but just being in uni makes you study more. being at home kills the mood. with the tv room being just there, and the bed right there and everything else is just too familiar makes you want to read less. i just want next friday to come :)

"can i be the girl that you met? can i be the girl that you met in a coin laundry?"

:|

2009-09-07T19:40:00.003+08:00

sebelas hari lagi :)

week 6 has started. back to uni life. classes, labs, assignments and midsems are coming up too. what a drag. yeah had an overall good study break i guess. had people over for buka on saturday with heaps of yummy food :) went and played touch rugby on sunday - after like 3 years. it was embarassing! not only cause i haven't played in so long i just suck but also cause i was the only girl on the field with a bunch of big, fast and loud guys. but it was good fun. maybe next week i won't be as shy. haha.

i am really not looking forward to the upcoming two weeks. i'm gonna bet that it will be full on. and i should probably get a start on it like now. i have a few things on my to do list that needs to be done for the month of september :/ but all is well, cause next weekend is raya. so the two weeks will end with a pretty good thing. i can't believe that it's already like halfway through puasa. it's gone by quite fast. not that i'm complaining hihi :)

i guess this week will be filled with late night sessions in uni. ah, the joy. later loves.

*lets take it back before it all went wrong.

cause we're tough and we know what's up .

2009-09-04T03:51:00.003+08:00

study break is ending soon :( which sucks cause classes will start and assignments will be piling and everything is a whole cycle again. boring. been hanging out with the usual people. had like a little games night tonight. played uno and all. watched some seriously shit low budget thriller gory movie which had us screaming and laughing at the same time. we shall do it again soon guys :) i'm having my sahur of maggi and milo now. i should probably go to sleep soon.

this week has been quite alright. went to the gym and my whole upper body is so sore it's not funny. but i'm going to the gym again tomorrow - i hope it'll be okay. weights are hard as :/ about two weeks till home :) loves.

discoverers welcome :) -murdoch's open day volunteering stint.

blog plug: listen to aj rafael on youtube ! i am in love with the guy. i've been listening to his songs, every single day :)

you still did us proud :)

2009-08-30T03:35:00.002+08:00

arsenal lost :( but it was a good game tho. 2-1 against man utd. stupid own goal by diaby. lucky penalty by rooney. argh. the pain. but all in all it was a good game. so i still love you arsenal :) okay going to sleep now. come to murdoch's open day tomorrow everyone. loves.

goodnight world. or good morning. whichever way the sun is shining for you. have a great one :)

when will i see your face again ,

2009-08-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

it's the weekend yo. i'm having an early sahur (because i can't be bothered waking up at 3 or 4 in the morning) of the last slice of a leftover pizza from yesterday that i bought at ciao italia whilst listening to jason mraz and stuffing my face full of biochemistry, genetics and immunology. fun.

but that shall stop soon because i will go to bed, sleep and be fat. hihi.

today was really a stay-at-home day. i really didn't feel like going out. so i spent the whole day just sitting at the dining table, reading a few things, doing some questions, youtube some old songs, read some more, facebook. you get my drift.

ciao last night was good. the food was nice and the portion was huge! didn't take pictures of the food tho. cause being in that place - with the cramped space and the fast song that makes you eat even faster - really isn't a place where you can have a relaxing, slow, laid back dinner. it's like you have to eat and talk at the same time and then leave. haha. oh well.

anyway i'm gonna go now. loves.

*i know that after tonight, you don't have to look upon the stars no more.

i feel like having a cup of milo .

2009-08-26T20:58:00.003+08:00

selamat berpuasa everyone. may this ramadhan bring us more joy, happiness and blessings :)

it's already about the fifth day of puasa. and it has been mighty fine so far. buka's at about 6pm and that's not a problem for me. hihi. oh i'm hitting the gym tomorrow. i know, puasa and gym? right. but i am. i have to. have to look slightly good in all the baju raya. haha. kidding, i just need to lose a couple and keep fit. oh going out fur buka tomorrow with the girls. we've been wanting to go to ciao italia together for so long, and finally, we're going tomorrow. right, i hear you. gym then ciao italia? give me a break lah it's puasa! hehe.

volunteering at murdoch on sunday. should be okay. have to get my head around uni, this time around. fact is, due dates are slowly getting nearer and midsems are creeping up too. i can't believe second year is coming to an end like, soon. :o sure now as we see it, there's ten weeks till the end of semester. a whole of ten weeks! but, let me assure you, that ten weeks is going to fly by faster than you can say "i hate stupid lab reports". you get what i mean. but we can always make ten weeks full of fun. loves loves.

H1N1 scare: rocking the mask hihi.

*cause you're the perfect lullaby.

-

2009-08-21T23:17:00.003+08:00

"look down,

the ground below is crumbling

look up,

the stars are all exploding

it's the last day on earth

in my dreams, in my dreams

it's the end of the world

and you've come back to me

in my dreams

between the dust and the debris

there's a light surrounding you and me

it's the last day on earth

in my dreams, in my dreams

it's the end of the world

and you've come back to me

in my dreams

and you hold me closer than i can ever remember being held

and i'm not afraid to sleep now

if we can stay like this until

it's the last day on earth

in my dreams, in my dreams

it's the end of the world

and you've come back to me

in my head i replay our conversations

over and over till they feel like hallucinations

you know me, i love to lose my mind

and every time anybody speaks your name

i still feel the same

i ache, i ache, i ache inside

i ache, i ache, i ache inside"

;(

- kate miller heidke's the last day on earth.

cold .

2009-08-20T20:02:00.003+08:00

the weather has been all over the place. it's been raining all day today and it's been raining almost every night although yesterday was bright and sunny. i like winter but the wet and windy weather is starting to get a wee bit annoying :/

oh i joined the uni gym today :o so note to self: make full use of it please. you've already paid for it!* and puasa is also around the corner. very close around the corner, i might add. i'm looking forward to it i guess. i mean with it being winter still, buka will be around 6 which if you think about it, isn't so bad after all.

uni has been a-okay, as usual. assignments are slowly starting to come in. time has been passing by quite quickly - it's already the end of week 3 and then the week after next is our one week study break. i'm volunteering for murdoch's open day, i figured i might as well cause it's not like i'll be doing anything anyway. and plus, it'll look good on the cv or something you know.

anyway, went to the torchlight tour at fremantle prison last night with amina and a couple of friends. it was a spooky experience but interesting nonetheless. i mean going through the prison knowing that the place is haunted does put scary thoughts in your head. but it was fun. don't know if i'll more tours there - i think one night tour was enough for me thanks.

and so i'm gonna go now. loves.

*if i could see the future and how this plays out, i bet it's better than where we are now.

returning to the habit .

2009-08-16T23:53:00.003+08:00

okay so maybe i should start posting again. regular postings. i hardly blogged when i'm back in kl and since i've been back in perth, i just haven't had the mood to post anything. the last post, as you've might have read was for my dad (i miss you abah). and so i guess i should regularly post now.

just got back from dinner. uni has been a-okay so far. yeah sure, i'm slowly getting sick of it but who doesn't right. the routine is also slowly hitting in. it's funny how during the last few days in kl i was having mixed feelings about coming back to perth - i kept saying that i didn't want to come back but at the same time i do because i want the old perth routine again. but now, i'm here and i go through the routine, i don't want it anymore. i want a new one. or rather, i want to go back to kl. and the circle continues :/

but moving on. really nothing much has been happening lately. went to masala mix on friday night - yes, yes, i went to masala mix. and trust me, that would be the first and probably the last time. don't get me wrong, it was fun and all but honestly, not really my preferred kind of music. but it was a great night. the company was fun so it makes it all okay. don't have pictures but i'll steal them of kambing cause she took pictures.

anyway i feel like a movie sometime soon. anyone up for a movie? hehe. goodnight world. sleep tight.

*we were never meant for do or die.

a note for abah .

2009-08-09T19:40:00.002+08:00

dearest abah,

i was going to write a long post. i was going to write something long and nice but once i started to write i keep hitting backspace. everything i seem to type just doesn't sound right.

i just wanted to say, i'm sorry. i'm sorry because i haven't been calling or texting much. i'm sorry if i seem to not care. i'm sorry if i made you sad. but you know i don't mean it. i don't mean to come across as not caring. i guess over the years we've changed and grow, and i'm sorry that it seemed like we've grown apart. but you're still my abah and i love you so much. i might not say it everyday or every week. but i just want you to know that i do. even if i don't seem to show it.

i guess over the years, things haven't been the way it was before. and i admit that it's partly my fault. i guess with you, now married, i feel as though you might not need us as much anymore. but i know, every dad would always want their daughters to look after them and care for them. and trust me, i do and i will. you should know that you won't grow old alone because whatever happens you have your two daughters till the end. we can never replace you and you can never replace us. you're always our abah and we're always your daughters.

again, i'm sorry. you shouldn't have to feel at all sad but i guess i've somehow let you down in that part. and truly i feel bad for it. i know a blog post may seem a bit odd for me to say i'm sorry. but i know you read my blog and i just wanted you to know that it might take a little bit of time after our talk for me to call or text you but i'm trying and this blog is a start.

i love you abah. i always did, always do and always will.

- raina.

let me sing, i'll be king .

2009-07-31T23:48:00.002+08:00

so i'm back in perth. it's been yeah a-okay i guess. uni hasn't started yet, and i'm so not looking forward to it starting. and i think i speak for most of my girlfriends here. haven't met the girls from uni yet, we're thinking tomorrow night maybe. and i haven't seen dani and bel either :( but i saw mina tonight yay ! i've missed her like crazy. perth is slowly starting to sink in. i'm just waiting on september to come. haihh i miss kl. but all is well. i'll soon go back to the old routine and i'm sure time will fly by.

the flight back to perth was horrible :/ guess who's not flying with air asia anymore. never again. unless i really really desperately have to. i'm not gonna fill the details in here but let's just say, we don't get along too well. maybe i'll just blame it on the seats.

perth is still the usual. nothing really has changed. it's nice being back in perth sure, although i much rather not be here. but you know the comfort zone thing is really starting to grow on me. now i just have to get use to uni again :o

loves loves. goodnight world .

no i don't have a penny but i'll show you a real good time .

2009-07-22T01:05:00.002+08:00

going back next week. i don't know what i feel really. i don't want to go back, i don't want uni to start. but at the same time, i do. it's weird. i don't want to leave. yet, i want the old perth life back. true, i'm having a ball here at home. but i guess, you gotta do what you gotta do aye.

in other news, i'm turning nineteen in a couple of days. i don't know what i feel for that too. i'm not like excited or anything. but i kinda look forward to it. but i look forward to everyday so i guess it feels just like any other day. so now lets look forward to tomorrow shall we?

goodnight world.

oh hi ! sorry .

2009-07-12T19:24:00.003+08:00

okay so, i haven't been blogging for ages. things just got in the way i guess. china, food, meet-up sessions. all that you know. oh and we've moved houses and there's no internet connection there yet so i hardly go online these days anyway. i spent my days lazing around at home or moving stuff to the new house, eating out, watching tv and my nights are filled with dvd season boxes.

nothing much really. i've been driving around here a bit. trying to get myself somewhat okay with the driving "situation" here. anyway, i'm gonna go now.

laters :)

yay !

2009-06-18T18:13:00.002+08:00

i'm home! finally. such a long day yesterday. well, i'm sure others had longer but such a dent in the plans. not that i planned a whole lot of things. but i was hoping to be around noon yesterday but no, our flight was delayed for almost six hours. nice one. i mean it's not air asia's fault really - the weather in tianjian or somewhere was going crazy and the plane had to divert somewhere. but alas, the plane came and we left. although the things that came along after that isn't really what i was even half expecting. sure, i had little expectations flying air asia - i mean how can you expect so much when the tickets are cheap. but c'mon, the food was terrible. the seat was a pain. but the food, omg it was so bad. don't know if i want to fly it again but we'll see.

putting that aside, i'm home :) and that's all that matters really.

byebye perth. i'll see you in a bit :)

2009-06-16T18:34:00.002+08:00

home is where i'll be around 1 in the afternoon tomorrow : )

ahhh i can smell you already you polluted air. okay sounds bad when i put it that way. haha. apparently it's all hazy back home but who cares, i'm flying off in the morning :D

sure i'll miss perth but 1 month and a bit is not long. not long at all really.

just the feeling you get when you're home - nothing beats it.

loves.

feels good .

2009-06-13T11:17:00.003+08:00

home in four days :) excited or what. i am. hihi. uhm the thought of waking up in kl, in the scorching heat compared to the cold, wet and windy weather here in perth for a few weeks isn't really a problem i don't think. gah i just need a holiday, and i want to go home. can't wait :)

china will be alright i think. i'm looking forward to it sure. although i do have some reservations but i think i'll be fine. i want my nasi lemak from the pasar tani please :)

loves.

eight eight eight .

2009-06-09T19:22:00.003+08:00

exams are finally over. i really don't want to say or think about how the last paper went. i'm just glad it's over. done and done. now i can just look forward to go home :) oh and meeting the girls tomorrow for dinner. i haven't seen them in so long, it's not funny.

relatives are over from kl this week. went for a picnic at whiteman park today. finally the canon got its overdue workout. it's been too long and it felt good just playing around with it.

i want to get myself a new jacket for winter. and boots. and a new bag. since my favourite from melbourne is kinda broken now :( jacket first tho. maybe i can get the bag in kl. hurm. going now. loves loves.

dress me up; study session at home - some random jumper my dad bought, grey tights from stradivarius and my uber comfy cotton on home-shoes :)

don't ask .

2009-06-08T13:27:00.001+08:00

dig, dig, bury.

i shit you not.